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School’s ended. My Senior year, gone in a heartbeat, and now there’s nothing left to do but slack until college. Sure, I’ve been working like crazy, but the free time I’ve had will eventually become my downfall. I’ve fallen back into the rut of drugs and alcohol. I’ve picked up smoking again, and now that I’ve finished off my probation, marijuana has slowly began creeping back into my life. Cigarettes are my addiction, unfortunately. I’ll smoke anything I can get my hands on, not because I need the nicotene, but because I need something to keep me occupied.

Marlboro Menthols, Camel Wides, Bali Haijs, Newports, anything with a bit of flavor or menthol. I’ve even taken a strong liking to hookah. I guess graduating has given me a feeling of growing up, more than I ever thought it would. I feel older and older with every passing day, and the constant smoking doesn’t help that. Fortunately, I’ve cut back to the point where I’m no longer buying my own products, just bumming off others. Drinking is another problem. I drink to be social, not to be drunk. It’s all in moderation, but even I realize that everything has to start somewhere.

I’m tired with involving myself with these situations. I’m tired of drinking and smoking. I’m tired of the influence I get from others, and I’m especially tired of feeling dirty. I’ve never claimed any social status before, and I don’t ever plan on it. The scene is littered with children and their bullshit straight edge pride. You’re no more intimidating or impressive than anyone else with your ex’d hands and drug free clothing. You wont be held any higher in anyone’s mind. People make choices for themselves, and in the end, your claims won’t matter anyway.

In light of this situation, I’ve decided to live a drug free lifestyle. My weight has slowly increased since I’ve picked up these habits, and it’s about time I clean up my act. I’m dropping everything, losing weight, improving my hygiene. And I’m doing it for myself, not for anyone else. It’s the right choice. I’m going to live drug free for myself, and for the environment. And you should too.